`The world I love.-

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Saturday, August 25, 2007

3:35 AM

So I woke up today bright and shiny again. I went for shopping after boy dropped me off. And I just fall inlove with something which I am really questioning myself if I should get it. Should I? Im absolutely inlove with it but again, I was absolutely inlove with every thing else I bought too.

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future is a dirty word.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

6:39 AM

Things/People that I know I might just miss when I leave Rapp:

1. Wendy Wonder
The only self claimed healthiest vegetarian on earth that can eat fish and chicken and STILL be a vegetarian after lunch. She's really really funny and I'm not saying that because you're reading this but yeah laughing with you seems like an old routine to me.

2. Mr Yee
Razlan was telling Armi that Yee is my best friend because he overheard me calling Yee every morning asking him why didnt he wait for me for breakfast. And despite the fact it doesnt take much effort to crack him up, just say "sek fan" and we'll both burst out laughing. I think we laughed at the same joke everyday. Damn sad I know.

3. Raz
The one that didnt call me the day Cyna got raid and cabut. The one that said that if we stay together(one of those moments when we were house hunting and we came across this super nice place with super huge balcony), I'm not allowed to bring guys back but he can have his girls at home. As if I won't bring any home. I remember whining in his PD house that I want to drink water and I was gonna sleep you see. He brought water to my bed and tuck me to sleep. Ahh I feel so loved.

4. Zakky
The one who threaten me with my own pictures because it was kononnya in his phone and I owe him 3 bottles of orange juice for fucks. Always teach me the right way to do the wrong things (bad influence giler). The one who gives me one of the nicest bear hug whenever Im sad. I feel loveddd too. So he deserve a watch. See??

*It was supposed to be a Rolex but erm something's wrong with the watch. Go figure.

5. Erika
She's probably one of the funninest funny person. Erika is a good girl who talks alot of nonsense. Seriously she's damn funny. There was once on the way back from lunch, she saw this piece of pineapple on the floor, all of the sudden she just run and jumped on it.

6. Daniel
THe most emo-iest emo guy in Rapp. I could probably blame him for all the bruise that I have and he always promise to make me smart again (err internal jokes ppl) But anyway back to Daniel, he's also another super funny person cause he would die watching football. If his house was on fire, he would still sit down on the couch and watch football. This kinda Liverpool fan where to find. He thought he was the most unluckiest guy on earth cause he have to work on weekend until.. erm lets not start the war.

7. Will
To be continue because Alicia needs to sleep. Watch out for this part because the climax is this one. SEKK FANNN!!!!!!!!!!!!

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im not that fond of soft toys. really.

Monday, August 13, 2007

7:19 AM

Cute right.

On my modem

I dont know where my fucker tshirt went. I liked it alot.

Bibi and the deceased Bubu back when they were babies. Bibi's big now. I feed them sausages. Ayam Mas :)

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pause it at our favorite parts.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

5:16 AM

There's no shame in being afraid. Hell, we're all afraid. What you got to do is figure out what you're afraid of, because when you put a face on it you can beat it. Better yet, you can use it. Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then I would be a failure.

I got to admit that good things don't come easy. Infact, they always always come last. And once you grab hold of it, it feels pretty damn good. Sometimes I want to grab hold of so many good things in life that I would pause it at my favorite parts and skip the goodbyes. But am I afraid of being afraid? YES

Anyway on a lighter note, I'm feeling pretty random (not like I'm not random all the time) that I think you should know that:

I'm afraid of dark. I'm afraid of walking at dark places because I'm scared of hmm creepy things. Especially my night after watching horror movie, I still remember after watching Exorcism of Emily Rose, I think I didn't sleep well for a week.

I count my steps when I walk. Pretty strange habit I know but I can't help it. I like to step right in the middle of the tiles because I hate stepping on the line.

I tried to cook rice without water. I just didn't know that I need to put water to cook it. But I'm a pretty good cook now :)

I'm afraid of leg cramps. You know how whenever you have leg cramp, its pain and ur toes feel kind of weird? Pain aside, I'm just afraid I won't feel my toes again and I have cute toes so it would be TRAGIC if I can't move them anymore

I'm easily distracted. Like how everytime someone is talking to me especially when I'm sms-ing, typing or talking, I would accidently type out whatever that someone is talking about.

I'm afraid of cats. Stray ones. Can't remember when but I saw this scary stray cat jump onto someone's lap to reach for the food. I don’t want them to jump on me. I get pretty paranoid around cats, I would just refuse to eat

I repeat Dashboard Confessional so many times I think I ruined it. Omg like how I'm listening to Taking Back Sunday, Jimmy Eat World and Matchbook Romance over and over again now.

I'm afraid of people puking. Somehow it would makes me want to puke too. Peer pressure right

I laughed till I puked once because my friend was really damn funny and I laughed too hard for like a good half an hour bending down

I'm afraid of taking lift alone. I count the seconds for the lift to open and I always stare at the display because I'm scared that the lift will stop moving

I accidently flushed my turtle (Bubu) down the toilet. So all together there was Bubu, Bibi (it was supposed to be bibubibu ) and WeewangwangWeewangwang. My friend said that Bubu might survive with all the shit. Sadness,

I have a thing for cute nerds. The whole Adam Brody type.

I was in a meeting and it was so fucking boring but I can't YAWN. It wouldn't look nice infront of the client so I was really refraining myself from yawning. After that I had jaw ache the whole day.

Like right now, I think I've been listening to Matchbook Romance for the past 3 hours because I fucking don't get enough of it in the office. Note, same song.

I like smelling cheeks. Not butt cheeks pleease, cheeks cheeks.

I cried watching One Tree Hills. Okay la I cried abit during Transformers also when Bumblebee was injured and I thought he was gonna die (ahhh sappy moments).

I can't stand messy collars. I have the urge to fix people's collar if its messy. Even strangers.

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we lay, we lay together

Sunday, August 5, 2007

4:24 AM

-I'm thankful. Thankful that you are always there for me whenever i need you. i'm sorry that i didn't picked up ur calls the other day, i was angry at you. i just wanna find a reason to be angry but you're so damn good in making me feel bad with your sappy voice. oh i heart you so.

-I'm sorry. I'm sorry I played with your feelings. I know how you feel towards me, i'm not blind. I'm sorry that I never picked up your calls. I really don't understand what you see in me because no matter how bad i treated you, you always always try to understand me. Like how the other day you purposely come to see me (i know you came for me ok) but i just left knowing you would come. I'll try to be nicer.

-I'm not sorry. I'm not sorry that you're out of my life. Infact I wish I'd done that earlier because you don't deserve to be in my life. There was once I wished all the awful things would happen to you but again, I'm not you. And I'm much better than this. Do whatever fuck you want as long as you stay out of mine. And a friendly reminder, stay away from my friends, find your own.

-I'm not suprised. Why am I not suprise that you fuck around more than I did? I think the best deception award goes to you. I knew I wasn't your only one, and perhaps a lil more special than the rest but boy I was dead wrong. But again, I wasn't in for the real thing, you're just a mere distraction. Incase you want to know, try to make sure all your flings doesn't know each other. It won't be pretty.

-I know you know that your hot thats why I didn't bother to say hi. So the next time, instead of waiting for me to say hello, perhaps you can just stop looking at me that way and do something about it. I knew you were smilling at me, I was looking at you.

-Oh poster boy, stop sitting at the side of the road for God sake. Its not classy.

-Don't you dare call me that. If you don't like the things I do, stay out of my fucking life then. Don't just come into my life and try to make it perfect. Its not and I love that its cracked here and there. I'm not perfect and I don't want to be.

-I'm not sorry things end this way. I wish it didn't get this ugly but right now, I'm just so glad its over.

-I'm sorry I left without saying bye. You didn't get much sleep with me at the side obviously. I remember smelling like you the whole day.

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